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Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Mood : extremely down.

haiz... do u juz hate those kind of people who are just like COMMENTATORS? they just like to comment non-stop abt everything there is in life. why do they hafta act/behave/handle things their irritating ways? COMMENTATORS = people who talk about things only after things have happened, following only AFTER the event lamenting on why things did not happen the way they think should have happened. instead of really get involved and make things happen the way they want it.

it would have been fine if they would just leave nonsense comments to their own and if they had nothing good to say they should just shut up or the very least try to avoid the topic instead of wanting to just criticize on whatever they want to... having a father who is this sort of a character, i personnally feel extremely ashamed and disappointed... ppl take parents as their role model but how am i in anyway to make a role model out of someone who is so extremely self-centered and "commentator" based in life? doesn't it just irritates u when someone just stands by the side when u need desperate help and see u fail in your task which after so takes so much joy in RIDICULING, CRITICIZING and REPRIMANDS you after so much misery from failing a task?

how can a supposedly what ppl call "role model" himself be of such a behaivour? the very least he could have done was at LEAST to just step in and helped abit instead of just waiting for the chance to (wat the chinese says it as) "adding fuel to the fire"after i failed in what i do. what use is there for just wanting to comment so much on whatever that has ALREADY HAPPENED? i mean its there for everyone to see, ITS THAT OBVIOUS ain't it? is a summary really needed for everything that is not done of the right way? must there alwaes be a "comment" column after every newspaper article so that ppl wif such itchy mouths can't put in whatever they want to say and let themselves enjoy so much in just making ppl's efforts seem so much wasted and useless. "Talk is alwaes cheap" and to them, "Action never speaks louder than words" so comes to them that whatever "i" say will make sense to every nation, living being and every individual in this entire Universe and that they must listen and heed wateva comes from "my" mouth.

so sacred is their "individualistic" ideology that if one were to steer awae from where they stand, they will be lost and deem to be "lousy", "stupid", "useless", "no-brainer", "good-for-nothing" and needless to say "of so much of a different class to them" that they would so "rightfully" deem these ppl who disagree as "OUTCASTS" and so far so disrespect, disregard and treat u less den a peice of sh*t. how can ones ideology be really perfect when everything is so individualistically tot of? individual ideas are nt accepted nationwide or universally therefore they shouldn't be tot of as "PERFECT" or "RIGHT". but when these unreasonable peeps really INSIST that they are, those who can't be bothered really just give in to them and just lets them have their ways therefore leading to them feeling so INVINCIBLE and DARING to just say what they want. such a habit that they haf developed deeply into their roots that they just will not accept anything from any other people not even before others haf given their 1st words of introduction on wat they are thinking... such is the power of "FEELING I AM ALWAYS RIGHT" that gives them the attitude of IMMEDIATE REJECTION of other better or more realistic ideas than that of theirs.

obnoxious, self-centered, non-soul searching, parasitic, sly, cruel and evil characters are these people in our lives that makes it so unbearably unlivable in even the most holy and peaceful place to stay in in this world , our HOME. when there is a tyrant, there must be a lot of suffering for those around or under him. this kind of life is v tiring and life draining for most. i m v much surprised tt i still could survive till this date under the tyranny of my "FATHER" and i extremely admire my mum for staying by the v side of this kind of tyrannical character. i m in no way happy about being living in this home. everyday is a tough and exhausting battle wif tyranny and everydae, swords must be hung tightly from the waist of mine in order to fend rightly for myself in order for survival. wat more, this enemy only retreats to itz nest to rest for a while and starts every attack now and then whenever it sees itz target. leaving the target totally restless from all of these attacks. no matter how many times target is spotted, it never fails in attacking it aggressively and relentlessly. this kind fo underattacked life is so exhausting for me that i feel that i must get rid of it soon and fast.... but no matter wat i do, i still nid to think of my mum who still nids to endure such atrocities, if i were to leave, wldn't she be the only one left to stand up to such a hardship? haiz.... lifes such a mistake. all the fun childhood memories are being thrown back so far into my mind into the realm of the ultimatum of sub-consciousness that there is no way to retrieve anything happy from my past. all of my memories are being so far hidden that i can never ever bring them back for a gd laugh nor can i even remember anything that i can ever share. when people just speak of their childhood memoirs, i just sit there wondering when my tyranny-ruled life will ever end bringing back all the good memoirs...

haiz... to those who haf wonderful dads, congrats to u all and make sure u all treasure them so much that u all will find that they are still with you even when they are not around. to those who haf such dads as mine, i share your misery and i extremely feel that we should all be freed from this kind of a life. like in all movies, i hope there'd be a Hero/heroin riding horse to come and save us one of these daes... may god bless all.

Mood : no change still extremely down.

遗忘记录史 5:25 PM

Saturday, September 25, 2004

yeh so happy this is my only second entry into my boring old blogwonder why i can't get myself to do the updating of my blog.

yesterdae while at work i received this call from a customer guess what she said? "Can u tell me what is the voltage and how manny pin plug is TAIWAN using coz i m going over there for a trip and i needto charge my handphone." Working in a travel agency, we only provide information on flights and prices nt wat KIND of electricity powerthe other country is using... i replied politely a few times to hersaying tt nobody around here(agency) knows, this woman began scolding and reprimanding my company wildly using extreme words such as STUPID and LOUSY to "COMMENT" on the coy where shortly before she hung up, she claimed that she would make known to the public that no one shd get anything from out company and tt we provide lousy services.

alto being polite in all ways "attending" to this unreasonable customermost of u would say that such is the cons of being in a service side company, but then what i think is that being in service side meansthat anybody can be rude to the person working behind the phone?is that in anyway rightful in the beginning? we are humans also mahzcan't we at least command the basic respect of being a fellow worker?unless there is really somewhere who slacks around sitting in their underwearscalling to every service sector and enjoy scolding everyone tru the phonejuz coz their unreasonable demands cldn't be met at all.

ok lahz... this entry abit emotional and agitated... so i will stop here abt this stupid subject coz it juz shd be over and done with... *stretches fingers* so sianz.... haiz...

遗忘记录史 7:50 PM