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Saturday, January 26, 2008
最近很倒霉...也不知道到底是发生什么事...
新的公司要离开之前,我的上司就在我的背后捅我几刀...她和人事部的主任说她交给我的工作全部没有做...因为我在公司是新人,而她之前有在这里作过工所以她就相信了上司说的话...那种感觉一点都不好.从来没有被人家那样子对待过...在我面前嘻皮笑脸,在我背后却...好阴险...
那件事还没过去之前,又接到了她从新西兰打来的长途电话...本来是应该很开心才对... 和她说了她在那里的状况后,她又哭了...还是一直在骂我作出了让她如此伤心的事情...我尝试坚强的忍住泪水,和她解释我不和她说的原因...但是她还是那么的任性,不去理会我说的一切...我觉得自己很烂,如此小事还做不好...到最后,还是没有解释清楚...我还是挂着千古罪人的罪名......我只想好好的和她做个朋友...
一连串的打击让我差一点儿透不过气...真的,一个人倒霉起来还真倒霉...
以为一天就要结束了,却又被通知说我的东西全部交给上司...她会说我没有做工还有什么好交代的?没关系,她不来和我取资料就算了.她还在我面前示威...说叫别人代替我做我的工作....还大大声的在我背后和其他员工说她要他们做的工作...我在一旁静静的听着...
我听了听...她吩咐他们做的东西,我全部都做过了...什么quotation啦...你跟本就是在叫他们做double job...虽然看不过去...但是别理会她那么多...
明妹子,谢谢你欢迎我回去.我会努力的~~~~
遗忘记录史 4:47 PM
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
公司晚宴。。。 其实有两个。。。我的新公司刚好也把晚宴设在久公司晚宴的同一天。。。我选择了去我就公司的晚宴,因为我的朋友全部都在那里。。。还有。。。 要看我的明妹子穿裙子~!!! 嘻嘻~!!!场面搞得非常的大,排场也搞得很棒。。。大家都以最漂亮的装扮出席了这个宴会!好多好多美女!
明妹子,你那裙子加运动鞋的装扮还是很奇怪~
大家喝酒都喝到很痛快。。。也许是因为10.45pm 过后就没有freeflow了所以大家都很拼命的喝。。。很多人都醉了。。。太多人了。。。 我知道自己撑不住,几次自己到外面打电话给她向她求救。。。嘻嘻!至少我知道自己的能力到哪里也不太逞强吧。。。
我昨天刚会就公司找老板娘谈了谈。。。她欢迎我回去。。。我很高兴。。。但是,有一点后悔,当初没听她的话就跳了出来。如今自己辛苦了又到回了原点。。。失去了一些东西。。就当作教训吧。。。毕竟路是自己选择的。。。没有人逼我选择这条路。也没有任何的人能够逼任何的人选择他不想要的东西。人会做出选择,就只有是自己想要的才会去做。。。一旦自己做错了选择就要勇敢面对一切。。。当初我的朋友告诉我说叫我过来帮他的忙,搞好这间新公司,我想了想,决定放弃了那三个月花红来到新的公司。在这里我并不是不努力,而是我找不到自己。。。我选择离开。我朋友觉得对不起我,当初如果没有拉我出来我就不会这样了。可是这一切他都不需要自责,因为最后作决定的是我。我自己一个人。选择了这条路,我自己没有后悔。因为我利用了这个机会,看到了世界。我不会因为碰钉子,因为遇到不如意的事情而把结果赖在我朋友身上。如果要说笨,也是自己笨。当初自己在安全地带过着好好的生活,自己却踏了出来。朋友,我知道你需要帮忙所以我觉得牺牲时没问题的。毕竟此次牺牲并不会要我的命还是什么。=)朋友,我不曾怪过你。*hugs*
自己的错误自己要承担。。。也许这是我成熟的方面吧。。。真心面对的朋友是会有长久的友情的。朋友不是每天陪在身边才是朋友,朋友是你需要帮忙时,不需要多问,他的援手就在你身边的那种。朋友不问收获,只感受友情之间所一起经历过的每次。朋友不在于长久,而在于珍惜过每次在一起的时刻。朋友不在于多或少,而在于几个可以坦成相对。
生命自己掌控,错误自己承担,没有用别人来承担自己的错选择的必要。。。如果如此,最后只是卑鄙小人,并不能成大事。。。看开吧。。。做人心眼不能小。。。把过错赖在别人身上,只不过呈现了自己看不开,更加呈现了自己的不完美。
遗忘记录史 10:35 AM
Friday, January 18, 2008
其实到现在她还会是我心中的遗憾。。。当初答应一切都很爽快的我,如今一切承诺都已失言。。。当初他父母,阿姨都叫我好好照顾她。我答应了。。。她之前的男朋友也找过我问我对她是真心的吗?我当然是。。。坚持信念的我,已经坚持了个一年了吧。。。到最后还是。。。
新西兰那里现在应该是中午时分了吧。。。你在哪里做什么?在摘水果吗?你的梦想真的是这样吗?过去了真的会圆满你的梦想?我很佩服你的勇敢,可以跑下一切远走高飞。。。也许是因为你见过的区则比我多,看到的世界比我的大。。。还记得你有很多梦想,你要加油去完成它们。
希望你是过得好的。自己要小心哦。。。也许知道你在那里过得好我才会真正的安心吧。。。但是我又不敢问。。。只好静静的等待哪一天你亲自告诉我你真的过得很好。。。
我的病情加重了。。。(那是昨天的事情)。。。本来只是发烧头痛,可是昨天又重感冒与咳嗽。。。昨晚很辛苦才让自己睡下去。。。还好吃了版纳度,还有她那通电话。。。让我能够安心的睡下去。。。今天早上醒来,头痛与发烧没了。。。但是那烦人的感冒和咳嗽都还在。。。真是的。。。
我今天去interview希望一切顺顺利利吧。。。其实自己没有想过将来我想做什么。。。因为从来都没有盛重考虑过自己的将来,只过着走一步看一步的生活。。。嗨。。。是时候想想了吧。。。
烦人的感冒。。。
遗忘记录史 10:25 AM
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
我生病了。。。有点发热气(我在骗谁?是真的快要发烧那种)昨晚真的很不舒服。。。因为不想让她担心我,放工后不敢太快给她看到我撑不住的样子,自己到处走走消磨时间。。。其实那段时间真的很难受。快要透不过气,头又不舒服的感觉。可是真的不想让她看到我那样所以选择了让自己更加辛苦一点的办法。。。她放工时我还在死撑。。。嘻嘻~
但是,真的是幸福的~她说她煮面给我吃,起初是害怕她煮得不好因为她说她不大会煮。。。但是哪里知道,煮面是她最拿手的事情~!煮出来的面虽然我生病吃不出什么味道,但是那面真的QQ的让我吃得津津有味~好喜欢那样的面~
不只这样。。。晚上睡觉时。。。(别想歪歪了你们)她取来一盆冷水,用手巾帮我扶额头,让我快点去热。。。那一刻我真的是很感动。。。从来都没有人这么对我好,孤独了这一辈子,终于有这么一天,被父母以外的人关心。。。那一刻真的很想紧紧地抱着她,和她说“我爱你"。。。那种感动非比寻常,就很明显的一剑集中内心深处。我还在犹豫着她和她之间的不同吗?现在一切都很清楚了。。。我知道我的将来在哪里。。。我有了生命下一步的方向。。。我要让她将来幸幸福福,开开心心的~我们要走到将来,不只要走到将来,最重要是携手同行。。。这样的女朋友,就好像有了老婆一样的感觉。。。
宝贝,真的很感谢你。
我会很快好起来的。
你工作换了位子,你要加油。让那些误解你的人看到你的实力与努力~!干爸爹~!!!
遗忘记录史 4:36 PM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
haiz... i'm back... the chinese saying... Nv ren pa jia cuo lang, nan ren pa ru cuo hang... now i know the meaning... haiz... now inside wrong post inside company... there is no motivation at all to work... everyday come to work minutes late... never has that ever happened to me at old company before... but never do i know why i just do not take that little effort to want to come to work early... its just earlier den the previous company by 30 mintues and i am always 5 - 10 mintes late for work.... there really is no motivation....
i gave up my work over here... tendered... after just 2 weeks of work only... perhaps its cos the people here gives me too much pressure... but thats the only way i can learn but.. haiz... its just not as simple as that... just feel that its abit of the selfish side here... everyone's minding their own business... not helping until you show them that you need help or you ask for help... i was just too used to everyone helping each other... my Bros... those days we just helped each other serve customers here and there... those days were the best...
haiz... reason for tendering... not getting the job scope i was told i would get... tot i was gonna start to learn to do operation stuffs and products... but happens that it never happened... was pushed to handle corporate... a job where you send 1000 quotations and only tt few 2 will reply you and tell you they wanna book... worst of all the other 998 you have spent half of your day working out the quotations which you need to source from hell knows where... (yeah, i am exaggerating, just ignore me if you find me a nuisance) all those efforst almost always goes to waste... damn... hate it so much when those things happen...
if thats not bad enough? do a call centre service on top of that... all customers wanna book budget airline, they have to come down and make payment right? yeapz they go to the branch... and there goes the sales... haha~ best right?
well... her job hasn't been any better... manager is getting on her nerves with all the sarcasm he could give her... how i wish she could just leave that company now and then and move on with her life at another company.... however... due to her work perm probs not sure whether she will get taxed... but overall... financially taxing would be less taxing on her than mental taxing... seeing her always staring into space after work is what hurts me the most... she is just holding onto the hope that one day she can spark her motivation and get a boost at her work so that she can show off to her superiors... but haiz... if she has already worked hard and not gained anything... (hope u know what i mean) there are other reasons of cos, which i have not considered cos i don't see the whole picture...
both of us are facing work problems... i can't let myself focus on our relationship... its like we are being tied down by our work... but fortunately both of us do enjoy the times we are together... i really value those times seeing her laugh and smile... i hope to see it everyday.
san... she emailed me telling me those things. i have not replied till now... not sure why... just feel that i would make things worst if i replied... letting her hate me forever is not what i want... its just not me to do this kind of things... haiz... i'm still tied down with guilt whenever i'm reminded of her by things.... arh... when am i able to get off of this road....
can't type chinese cause boss around... hehe... anyway.. wish me luck in finding new job... i'm out of money... bank only left with 30++ haiz... phone bill come le... dun dare open... wish FS will quickly release my cheque... i need money now... haiz...
san, if u read this... the money pls keep first... i know you will return me when u come back... dun make your life there harder without extra money to bring you through... who am i kidding... she never reads my blog... haiz... nvm...
遗忘记录史 3:28 PM
Friday, January 11, 2008
finally manage to settle down abit in my new work environment... but still haiz... some things are just not as perfect as previous company. afterall, this company is still quite young... still maturing i guess... how much youth it will take for me and my colleagues to make this company mature is still yet to be known... so much to do... so little things i can do...
the old company is good much more interaction... now i know how the operations feel daily... minding own business is enough to keep themselves busy for the whole day long... its a wonder why they all get tired so easily...
this environment is quite nice just that everyone does their own things, interaction only after work... so bored... but every high post staff here is trying to go in their own way... somehow feel that i don't fit in... haiz... wonder why... am i too used to being pampered with life at old company... doubts doubts and more doubts... well just do what i can here ba... afterall the pay is not much to carry me through...
making plans to go on overseas trip at least for this year ba...
- Redang (priority)
- Hokkaido + Universal Studio (perhaps by end of year)
- Taiwan (the place she likes so very much and me, still yet to go)
- Hongkong (perhaps... did not enjoy last time with all the typhoon going around)
- KL (another visit to the faithful place i've been so many times)
- Genting? (for some cooling ba)
in future travel plans?
- Europe (Switzerland?Spain?Italy?France?)
- New Zealand
- Australia
My wish to get a driving license by this year maybe on hold ba... but i really wish i can learn how to drive at least... haiz... no car for me to drive either so no push for myself to go and learn...
she emailed me on the 6th... telling me how much i have hurt her by doing what i did, not telling her that i m with someone else... letting her know from someone else telling her... i did not want all these to happen... sometimes i wish she will put herself more in my shoes and think about why i am doing all these... its not to really hurt her, but to let her have a better mood to start the hardship she is going to face in the future... i am not sure how it all turned out to be like that... her email did hurt me too... tears rolled in my eyes... the heat going up my face... the heart breaking feeling... she wrote "why you say you to me is responsible? i don't need you responsible to me! i can responsible to myself!" this sentence really broke my heart... this was not what i meant... it was just a facade to cover up for putting down a relationship that i have kept and maintained with all my heart for over a year... but still she did not see through its cover... thats what put the nail in the coffin... i just dunnoe what to do... did not reply her email... becos if shes still feeling so rash, whatever reason i tell her is for will only become an excuse to her... i know i hurt you, san, but have you ever thought of how i felt having to do this kind of things to you? i guess not... cos from what you said... haiz... stop blaming u le ba... it ain't your fault either... but really wish that our 1 year is not wasted... this 1 year relationship and yet you still do not understand me...
if she had asked me not to break up, i would have considered... but she just never came back and told me she wanted to be together again... the times we have broken up, it was always me to go and make her stay... how i wish for once she had done so... that would have really brought our rls to the next level... but that day never did came and i somehow felt it was time to let go... so... haiz... just wish that you will do well at NZ... i just hope that you can forget me, the person who have hurt you so much and lead a carefree life you have always sought for~
you know that i've found someone who really is good for me and i really love, i hope you do too.
Mei, i will be strong... this is what i have to face since everything turned out this way... i will find the path to stay on track and keep moving forward, do not worry about me~
遗忘记录史 1:51 PM
Thursday, January 03, 2008
新的公司。。。
新的生活。。。
还不习惯。。。
这里的做法。。。
我不可以放弃。。。
我要坚强。。。
我不能气馁。。。
我有美支持我。。。
不敢写太多。。。
就到这里吧。。。
至少还有收音机可以听。。。
我会习惯的。。。
明明。。。
好好照顾自己。。。
在旧公司里大哥最不放心你了。。。
要照顾自己啊。
遗忘记录史 10:41 AM
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