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listen to other's problems, basketball (playing and watching), daydreaming.
loyal to the ones loved by me, take as much time as possible in toilets.
Toilet times are the most personal and quiet time of your lives,
good for thinking alot of things,
especially in the morning when you just wake up.
and for dozing off on the toilet bowl haha~!
World is full of surprises for the unexpected,
so are you, so full of surprises for the unexpectant world out there.
alwaes thinking that whatever comes in dreams happen in reality
enjoys self-deceit~ (^_^)
Friday, January 11, 2008
finally manage to settle down abit in my new work environment... but still haiz... some things are just not as perfect as previous company. afterall, this company is still quite young... still maturing i guess... how much youth it will take for me and my colleagues to make this company mature is still yet to be known... so much to do... so little things i can do...
the old company is good much more interaction... now i know how the operations feel daily... minding own business is enough to keep themselves busy for the whole day long... its a wonder why they all get tired so easily...
this environment is quite nice just that everyone does their own things, interaction only after work... so bored... but every high post staff here is trying to go in their own way... somehow feel that i don't fit in... haiz... wonder why... am i too used to being pampered with life at old company... doubts doubts and more doubts... well just do what i can here ba... afterall the pay is not much to carry me through...
making plans to go on overseas trip at least for this year ba...
- Redang (priority)
- Hokkaido + Universal Studio (perhaps by end of year)
- Taiwan (the place she likes so very much and me, still yet to go)
- Hongkong (perhaps... did not enjoy last time with all the typhoon going around)
- KL (another visit to the faithful place i've been so many times)
- Genting? (for some cooling ba)
in future travel plans?
- Europe (Switzerland?Spain?Italy?France?)
- New Zealand
- Australia
My wish to get a driving license by this year maybe on hold ba... but i really wish i can learn how to drive at least... haiz... no car for me to drive either so no push for myself to go and learn...
she emailed me on the 6th... telling me how much i have hurt her by doing what i did, not telling her that i m with someone else... letting her know from someone else telling her... i did not want all these to happen... sometimes i wish she will put herself more in my shoes and think about why i am doing all these... its not to really hurt her, but to let her have a better mood to start the hardship she is going to face in the future... i am not sure how it all turned out to be like that... her email did hurt me too... tears rolled in my eyes... the heat going up my face... the heart breaking feeling... she wrote "why you say you to me is responsible? i don't need you responsible to me! i can responsible to myself!" this sentence really broke my heart... this was not what i meant... it was just a facade to cover up for putting down a relationship that i have kept and maintained with all my heart for over a year... but still she did not see through its cover... thats what put the nail in the coffin... i just dunnoe what to do... did not reply her email... becos if shes still feeling so rash, whatever reason i tell her is for will only become an excuse to her... i know i hurt you, san, but have you ever thought of how i felt having to do this kind of things to you? i guess not... cos from what you said... haiz... stop blaming u le ba... it ain't your fault either... but really wish that our 1 year is not wasted... this 1 year relationship and yet you still do not understand me...
if she had asked me not to break up, i would have considered... but she just never came back and told me she wanted to be together again... the times we have broken up, it was always me to go and make her stay... how i wish for once she had done so... that would have really brought our rls to the next level... but that day never did came and i somehow felt it was time to let go... so... haiz... just wish that you will do well at NZ... i just hope that you can forget me, the person who have hurt you so much and lead a carefree life you have always sought for~
you know that i've found someone who really is good for me and i really love, i hope you do too.
Mei, i will be strong... this is what i have to face since everything turned out this way... i will find the path to stay on track and keep moving forward, do not worry about me~
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